Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Will this Dictate or Define Me?

“That’s what happens when you don’t pay your rent”...she said smugly. How do I pick up my life and begin from this point? you're confused let me rewind, I did not pay my October rent but I thought that was okay b/c I was going to break my lease and move closer to the city for I had convinced myself that with the gas prices being at $4 a gallon, not getting home until seven in the evening and on top of that living check to check it would be okay to just give up and leave. Villas at Hampton; from the moment I saw the community I new I wanted to live there, even though finding out the rent was over eight hundred dollars should have stopped me but hey that did include the cable. I applied and got the apartment. my first month's rent I paid late and it was a roller coaster ride for five months by the sixth month I knew I had to get out I was constantly behind on my bills, worrying, worrying and living barely check to check if it had not been for God and my wonderful man I don’t know how I would have made it but we will talk about him later

So needless to say the last month I was there I did not pay the rent instead I looked for an apartment normally that would have been a easy task but not for me b/c my credit history was horrible it seemed as if anyone who took a chance on me got stung, every application I put in got denied but I could not give up b/c I had to get out of this place I only had a few weeks.. Thanks to some creativity on my part I finally got approved for a place. moving day is finally here but guess what its raining b/c of the rain my plans changed I thought okay I will just have to move tomorrow which was Saturday but of course tomorrow never came because when I got home the locks was changed. the next morning I waited for the rent office to open so they could unlock the door so that I could get my things when the manager got there she said 'oh you've been evicted' I said what everything I had was in there and that’s when she said smugly "that’s what happens when you don’t pay your rent"

Present day, trying to rebuild when all you thought you had was taken, things that can’t be replaced, pictures, clothes, and books, everything that I worked so hard to get ten years worth of belongings gone in a one hour time span. Now my mind is set on rebuilding my life not back to where it was before but better. But how do I pick up my life when all I seem to do is struggle? if you ever find yourself saying I don’t have anything watch what you say for you never have nothing to you literally have nothing all that time I thought I had nothing to show for my life until everything was taken and I realized I had more going than I thought. So take a moment and thank the Lord for the small things he has blessed you with that we take for granted. This blog is dedicated to my life’s journey out of mediocrity to spiritual and financial wealth. In the famous words of bug’s bunny THAT’S ALL FOLKS


  1. Wow! What a great post to begin with! Now I'm anxious to know more!!

  2. Good start to your blog. I look forward to reading more!